We have no Scripture to tell us where God came from, and whether He created Himself, or anything before "In the beginning God…". . The best we can do is insure we have made His Son, Jesus Christ, our Saviour and Lord, and when we get to heaven, we can ask Him.. . accidie: See: ACEDIA.. acedia: To Aquinas, the melancholy condition of acedia [from the Greek for "absence of care"] which afflicted solitary Christian monks and hermits—causing them to apathetically shirk work and seek "undue rest"—is a sin. Walter Benjamin noted that acedia had re-emerged, among sophisticated urbanites in 19th century Paris, as ennui; and Aldous Huxley described it as a "subtle and complicated vice," composed of boredom, sorrow, and despair at the futility of everything. It seems that neither an ascetic contemplation of the divine, nor an immersion in the pleasures of the flesh will suffice; one must instead balance these modes of being with care. See: APATHETIC, BORED, ENNUI, DETACHED, SPLEEN.. . spleen: Like ennui, spleen [from the Greek word for that internal organ believed to be the seat of moroseness, or bad temper: hence "splenetic"] is an affliction suffered by over-stimulated sophisticates. The term was used in the mid-nineteenth century by Romantic poets to refer to a particularly tempestuous compound of boredom, lethargy, and despair: Sartre describes Baudelaire (for whom spleen was a central principle) as suffering from a "feverish, sterile agitation which knew that it was in vain and which was poisoned by a merciless lucidity." See: ACEDIA, ENNUI, LETHARGIC.. . ennui: Boredom may come and go, but ennui [from the Latin word for "hatred of life itself"] is a totalizing force which judges the world... and finds it unspeakably tedious. To be ennuyé is to be paralyzed by apathy and disgust, but simultaneously nerve-ridden by over-stimulated sensations. To the over-sophisticated urbanite, each tick of the clock can seem to say, as it did to Baudelaire: "I am life, intolerable, implacable life!" See: ACEDIA, APATHETIC, BLASÉ, BORED, LACKADAISICAL, LETHARGIC, SPLEEN